thirty...

Forgot to publish yesterday...

Today is the first day of the next decade of my life...when I've imagined how I'd feel when this day finally arrived, I would picture myself hiding in a closet, drinking the day away. The word thirty used to feel so final...like my life would just be going downhill from there. I guess when you're 24, it feels that way. Surprisingly, I'm embracing my thirtieth more than I ever thought I would, the best is really yet to be. I can honestly say I'm proud to be 30 today, there will be no pity parties in a closet for me!

Don’t get me wrong, I had a blast during my 20's and I’m a little sad to see it go. I traveled to Hawaii and Washington DC, visited Vegas numerous times, took a road trip across the country to Arizona, partook in the Country Fest activities for many years, then boycotted CF by going to a cabin in Cumberland and traveled all over WI and MN visiting friends and family whenever I could. I partied and drank more in those years than I probably will for the rest of my life combined. I learned how to be an adult, how to fail and how to pick myself up again, how to stand up for myself and how to grow from my mistakes. I also graduated college, started my career, moved to a BIG city where I knew very few people, bought a house on my own, graduated with my Masters, got married, became a landlord, and decided to become a mom. I lived…I grew up…I learned many life lessons…found my way…found my home.

I had a co-worker tell me the other day that I just look so relaxed and content and that she’s never seen me like this before…after she said that, I realized how much more mellow I’ve been feeling lately. I don’t know if has to do with being pregnant or this milestone birthday…but lately I’ve just not wasted my energy on worrying about the things I have no control over. Yep, we have a baby coming and will never be fully prepared for his arrival (both financially and emotionally), own two houses we won’t be able to sell for a very long time, Joe is looking for a job in a depressing market and we had a finance labor reduction at work a few weeks ago…all things that normally would have me freaking the heck out. But I think I’ve finally realized I can’t control it all and I just have to roll with whatever comes our way…I’m an overachiever by nature and even though I'm not exactly where I want to be with all aspects of my life/career...I’ve made peace with my situation(s) and where my life has taken me so far…it definitely is not what I would have imagined 10 years ago…but I wouldn’t change a thing…because everything has a way of working out the way it’s supposed in the end anyways.

They say your 30’s is the best yet (and it just continues to get better and better)…I will get to watch my children grow into little people and watch them learn everything from crawling to riding a bike to starting school. I’m really excited for what is to come…so maybe that’s why this birthday has been the easiest one so far? I don’t think I will miss my 20’s much. I accomplished what I needed to during that time…I worked very hard to get here, now it’s time to enjoy my life and all the blessings in it!

 

26w0d

Joe and I were talking today and he was telling me he can't wait anymore for pumpkin seed to arrive and just wants him here now....I said, he's not ready and still needs more time to cook and very casually stated, just give him 10 more weeks...and then panic started to set in a bit....he could be in here in TEN freaking weeks (assuming I wouldn't go full term and he arrives a little early at 36 weeks)...WHOA! It made my eyes water...10 weeks is NOT a very long time away!

And now for the weekly stats...

How far along? 26w0d or 65%

Total weight gain/loss: +13 pounds

Size: English Hothouse Cucumber or Eggplant.  He is 14 inches long and weighs about 1 3/4 pounds. And what is an english hothouse cucumber you might say?  Here it is:

Baby Development:  The network of nerves in his ears are better developed and more sensitive than before. He may now be able to hear both me and Joe as we chat with each other. He's inhaling and exhaling small amounts of amniotic fluid, which is essential for the development of his lungs. These so-called breathing movements are also good practice for when he's born and takes that first gulp of air. And he's continuing to put on baby fat.

Movement: YES!

Food cravings: McDonald's breakfast is back with a vengeance, it's all I can think about lately.

Food aversions: None.

What I miss: Jimmy John's, alcohol, my jeans (haven't bought maternity ones since I doubt I'll wear them much this summer)

How I'm feeling: I've been feeling pretty good so far...some days I feel more tired and my feet are aching more by the end of the day, here comes the miserable 3rd Tri, ugh!

Milestones/Best moment this week: Feeling this little peanut kick and not just movements...and hitting the double digits of days left!

100 days...

Holy crap...we're at 100 days today, GULP!  I know there is still plenty of time to get our never ending list of things done...but when you start at 240 days (which feels like yesterday), it makes you a little nervous to be this close to double digits...not sure we're ready but there is no turning back now, he will be making his arrival in just a few months, eeekkk!!! We have 100 days before our lives as we know it...change forever...

25w0d

Sorry this is so late, forgot to post before we left for the holiday weekend...but as of Friday, July 1st:


How far along? 25w0d or 62.5%

Total weight gain/loss: +11 pounds

Size: Rutabaga or Eggplant.  He's around 13.5 inches long and weighs about 1.5 pounds.

Baby Development: He is beginning to exchange that long, lean look for some baby fat now...his wrinkled skin will smooth out and will start to look more and more like a newborn. His hair is also growing and if you could see it, you'd be able to tell its color and texture.

Movement: YES! This is the first week I've felt definite kicks or punches (we have a VERY active little boy)...up to this point, it's just been him moving around. AND Joe finally heard/felt him move too...very exciting week!

Food cravings: McDonald's breakfast is back with a vengeance, it's all I can think about lately.

Food aversions: None.

What I miss: Jimmy John's, alcohol, my jeans (haven't bought maternity ones since I doubt I'll wear them much this summer)

How I'm feeling: I've been feeling good so far...some days I feel more tired than normal but I'm guessing with 3rd trimester just around the corner, I'll be feeling more tired again.

Milestones/Best moment this week: Feeling this little peanut kick and not just movements!